Embracing my natural lashes after 2 years of clusters lashes. Is it worth it?

I started wearing lash clusters back in 2024 and hadn’t ever taken longer than a week break until today. They made me feel so extremely pretty and whenever I would even take a one to two day break I noticed I would constantly tear myself down and find myself rushing to put them back on. I recently noticed this past weekend that when I had them off for three full days I felt absolutely disgusting and realized that me wearing lash clusters was not only a way to feel pretty but a constant assurance towards my self esteem and appearance. I want to embrace my natural lashes and beauty and not be so insecure when having a day off from clusters that i ultimately decided I shouldn’t wear them anymore. I also noticed that my eyes started to itch so bad these past few months with a lot of redness and I took that as a sign to leave lash clusters in the past. Plus I have severe allergies that make my eyes really itchy everyday. I want to start growing my lashes out with a lash serum and wearing mascara after I give my eyelashes a much needed break lol. Is it worth switching from clusters to normal lashes? And am I crazy for having this big of a breakdown over something I would consider to not be a big deal? Also if you guys have any suggestions for growth, mascara for straight eyelashes, or tips in general regrading my eyelashes that desperately need a break it would be much appreciated!